Date of Award

Spring 5-31-2025

Document Type

Thesis

Degree Name

Master of Fine Arts (MFA)

Department

Painting

First Advisor

Angela Dufresne

Second Advisor

Jackie Gendel

Third Advisor

Yasi Alipour

Abstract

The process of art-making is a BDSM activity. Painting doesn’t start from the brain. It starts from the hands. Most of the time, painters move through muscle memory, not thought. So, who is in control? I believe there is a higher being—the God of Art. Not a person, not a legend, but something beyond exciting. It loves to see the artist sacrificed, suffering, twisted. It wants something beautiful and painful.

My art practice in the studio is like a BDSM moment in a dungeon. I am the submissive. The god is the one who gives orders. The more I suffer—both in body and mind—the more joy they get from seeing that pain show up on the canvas. I don’t paint because I am free. I paint because I choose to kneel before the God of Art, burning my creativity to please them, again and again.

In this thesis, I write about that experience: how artists are chosen, how pain and desire become one, and why true art doesn’t come from learning, but from being taken.

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